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01 March 2007 @ 11:30 am
QaF Standalone "Why Dance Without Music?"  
Okay, so first things first - has anyone else been having the same problem I'm having? When I go to check out my Friends page, the first page loads just fine, then when I go to the next page (by clicking on 'earlier') it takes me all the way back to 2/22/2007.

Of course, if you're having the same problem I'm having, then this is a moot point as chances are you probably won't um...see this post.

Anywho, I wrote a little something after having watched Season 2 again.

Once again, I find myself having to say: THIS IS NOT CRACK!


Title: Why Dance Without Music?"
Pairing: Brian/Justin
Genre: Angst
Summary: 202 gapfiller - Brian's thoughts after Mikey kept trying to get Brian to dance and then said the unthinkable - "You always danced with Justin."
Warnings: None

Disclaimer: I don't own Cowlip or the boys, but you already knew that.

Author's Note: Thanks must go to my beta, shadownyc - thanks darlin'!







“You always danced with Justin!"

Brian looked up at Mikey while visions and memories started to bombard his mind.

Justin, coming to Babylon for the first time, shirtless, defiant, glitter dotting his perfect torso as he moved in on the dance floor, claiming what he thought was his right. Brian remembered the first time he danced with him, how he had moved in between the interlopers, grabbed Justin around his slender waist, licked up and over his glorious throat and finally, finally claiming his lips. In essence, claiming Justin for himself. And why shouldn't he? The kid was his and he had acknowledged that fact, regardless of whether it was the right thing to do or not.

Another time came to mind. Justin losing his shirt as a celebratory Brian danced close to him. Justin telling him 'it was a mystery' as to why Kip dropped the suit. Brian, laughing for his good fortune, held his lover closer, surrounding himself in the smell that was all...Justin. Whenever he danced with others, he knew something was missing. It was the scent that only belonged to the kid. No, Brian had thought at the time, not a kid now, soon he would be a man. He remembered how he couldn't wait to get him home and help him further bridge the gap between boyhood and manhood.

Another time, another night. Justin having to make the decision of whose life it was that he would live - his parents or his. Watching as the emotions played across Justin's face, as he lured him onto the dance floor, admitting that indeed it was too late, not knowing though for whom he was referring.

And that last dance. Brian's walls having crumbled down, somewhat briefly, glided across a floor amongst Justin's peers. Brian realizing for the first time what it was that he could finally admit - that he was just as much Justin's as Justin was his. The night's events of course, culminated in reconstructing the walls Brian had finally torn down.

Brian watched as the bodies gyrated and maneuvered on the dance floor to the relentless beat. They were all disconnected; jumping and bouncing in a haphazard pattern. He could always spot Justin in the middle of a crowd - he always seemed to...glow. These bodies seemed to be lackluster in color, awash in a sea of nondescript hues. They were simply puppets without strings, writhing every which way. Warm bodies that held no warmth.

You always danced with Justin.

Brian, always quick with a witty or snarky comeback, found that there was none today. Words seemed too pathetic and besides, Brian had none to give. So with that, Brian looked back at Michael, scoffed and walked away.

Dancing just didn't seem to hold the same appeal.



The End



As usual, I love feedback (unless of course, you didn't see this post because I got lost in the LJ black hole).
 
 
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Anneamcnh on March 1st, 2007 07:53 pm (UTC)
Ummm, more please?

I understand its a stand alone, but I really like this peice.

Thanks so much for writing!
Maria: B/J cha cha chaslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:03 pm (UTC)
Why thank you!

And yeah, it is sort of a one-off however, early S2 has apparently inspired me so there might be more gapfillers. :)
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Maria: B/J ILUslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Glad you enjoyed. :)
Xie: forever young smooshxie_xie_xie on March 1st, 2007 07:56 pm (UTC)
So lovely and sad but full of the love!
Maria: BJ cuddleslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:04 pm (UTC)
If it involves Brian and Justin, then of course it's full of the love!

Thanks!
A fan: wipes eyes - Tedjustinlovesart on March 1st, 2007 07:57 pm (UTC)
So sad and and so true :(

Justin telling him 'it was a mystery' as to why Kip dropped the suit. And for the first time I made the connection between Justin dropping his shirt and Kip dropping the suit. So, did Brian know?
Maria: B/J cha cha chaslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:07 pm (UTC)
Yes - that scene always kills me (esp when I see how insensitive Mikey is behaving!)

As far as the shirt dropping metaphor - I always wondered if Brian knew somewhere deep down. Esp the way Justin said 'it's a mystery.' I was thinking of adding a line in here where Brian knew it had been Justin but then I decided to leave this strictly canon, without my own own suppositions.

Thank you!
Eileen: B/J-Prom - Passioneileen_donovan on March 1st, 2007 08:18 pm (UTC)
I just saw that scene because I've just started S2! Very nicely done! I loved this:

Brian watched as the bodies gyrated and maneuvered on the dance floor to the relentless beat. They were all disconnected; jumping and bouncing in a haphazard pattern. He could always spot Justin in the middle of a crowd - he always seemed to...glow. These bodies seemed to be lackluster in color, awash in a sea of nondescript hues. They were simply puppets without strings, writhing every which way. Warm bodies that held no warmth.

This so beautifully explains the effect Justin has on Brian without Brian actually admitting anything. Lovely!
Maria: BJ cuddleslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:54 pm (UTC)
Well, that's the fun part of writing Brian in the early seasons, now isn't it? Getting him to admit 'it' without admitting 'it.' *sigh* But that's one of the reasons why we love Brian.

Glad I got that across though and Thank You!
His Minniemaxmygothangel on March 1st, 2007 08:24 pm (UTC)
yep, Mikey the annoying brat
I loved this liine:
Brian realizing for the first time what it was that he could finally admit - that he was just as much Justin's as Justin was his., because I think it's exactly what happened on that dancefloor
Maria: B/J ILUslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:56 pm (UTC)
I think that's what happened on that dance floor too - but then the bat came and the coma and it was as if Brian's walls went right back up. :(

Thank you for the great fb!
bodleianbodleian on March 1st, 2007 08:25 pm (UTC)
You made me late for work. Of course, I had to dash into LJ before leaving to see what had been posted and, of course, I had to read when I saw your entry. (Hey, look, no black hole.) Whenever I read something I need to say thank-you - my mother always insisted on manners - so now I am late.
But, stopping to read was definitely not a waste of time. Thank-you for writing, I enjoyed reading.
Maria: B/J cha cha chaslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:57 pm (UTC)
my mother always insisted on manners

Like all good mothers do.

Sorry about being late though.

And thank you for the fb! :)
flamencanyc: Hmm (cute Brian)flamencanyc on March 1st, 2007 08:50 pm (UTC)
Looking forward to reading this, but to answer your question, my f-list is behaving just fine.
Maria: Evolution Craven Oh Crapslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 08:58 pm (UTC)
Okay - then it must just be me. I guess I must report this bug to LJ. :(

But yay! Tell me what ya think later!
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Wicked Bitch Of The Westvlredreign on March 1st, 2007 09:16 pm (UTC)
*drive by post*

This was wonderful. I can't believe I never made the jump from Michael's statement about always dancing with Justin to the reason Justin wasn't there. *facepalm* So sad, true, and the love is there. Brian is just too hurt to see it. Great job!
Maria: BJ cuddleslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 11:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you!

Yeah - I always wondered if that was roaming around in Brian's head - if it hadn't been for the prom dance, would Justin be there dancing with them on that night that Mikey was high and being stupid!insensitive!best friend?
midnight: Brian Kinney poleinkingwords on March 1st, 2007 09:33 pm (UTC)
Hi, sweetie. Always love your writing. :)

On another note, I have the next chapter outlined and practically written it out in my head. I'm having issues with my computer at home. For the time, it's pretty much not working. The only access I have at the moment is work. ::hugs::
Maria: B/J cha cha chaslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 11:04 pm (UTC)
You only have access to the computer at work? That sucks!!

And thank you - glad you liked!!
firehead30firehead30 on March 1st, 2007 10:30 pm (UTC)
digging deeper
So lovely and so sad...and so apt. I love it when you dig deeper.

They were simply puppets without strings, writhing every which way. Warm bodies that held no warmth. Well done.
Maria: B/J ILUslave_o_spike on March 1st, 2007 11:03 pm (UTC)
Re: digging deeper
I love it when you dig deeper.

...whether it be when I write serious Brian introspection fic or when hiding those pesky bodies...:P

Seriously? Thank you, I do like writing Brian and what he's feeling - there's such a range of emotion that play on his face - it begs to be written into fiction.

Thanks again Fire!
Ilaria: emmett crying by stephmckyoubetterwiseup on March 1st, 2007 11:29 pm (UTC)
I always thought this particular scene had a lot of potential, it just had to be explored.

And the look Brian directs at Michael after he says "you always danced with Justin" is so emotionally-charged.

c_ç sad and really well-written.
Maria: B/J cha cha chaslave_o_spike on March 2nd, 2007 01:14 am (UTC)
I thought this scene screamed for a gapfiller too - so I wrote one.

And yeah, that look Brian gave Mikey - never before had Brian regarded Mikey in that way - as if he couldn't believe what he had just said.

Thank you!
singlewoman: I have yousinglewoman on March 2nd, 2007 12:21 am (UTC)
Very poignant.

Brian realizing for the first time what it was that he could finally admit - that he was just as much Justin's as Justin was his.

Such a beautiful line.
Maria: BJ cuddleslave_o_spike on March 2nd, 2007 01:10 am (UTC)
Thank you - I believe it was true at the time (still do).

:)
Renaelyxer on March 2nd, 2007 12:54 am (UTC)
Well it looks like it's all been said already, so I'll just say...Great job! Thanks!
Maria: B/J ILUslave_o_spike on March 2nd, 2007 01:09 am (UTC)
Well you're welcome and thank you! (No matter if it's all been said - I still like to hear it).
Chaos..panic..disorder...my work here is done.: Brian Snowmanjillapet on March 2nd, 2007 01:41 am (UTC)
Lovely, Maria!
Maria: B/J cha cha chaslave_o_spike on March 2nd, 2007 03:07 am (UTC)
Thanks Pet!