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07 April 2007 @ 04:06 pm
QaF Fic "Through a Mirror, Darkly" Chapter 15  
Hello everyone!

First off - I'd like to say Happy Easter to everyone out there!!!!!

Tomorrow is going to be a blast - hopefully the weather will be nicer than it was today. I've got eggs to hide.

I will respond to feedback for the last chapter and this chapter and anything else I've posted. I've just been busy writing, writing, writing. I'm also working on my What If challenge fic.

I hope you like this.

I would like to say a big THANK YOU to shadownyc for doing a quick beta for me! Thank you!! *hugs*

And now, enough of the chit chat....

I give you chapter 15

Spoiler Warning for this fic - Enter at your own riskCollapse )

Title: Through a Mirror Darkly
Chapter: 15
Pairing: Brian/Justin - duh!
Genre: Angst/Horror
Warnings: Character Death but not what you think.
Summary: Takes a strange turn at the end of Episode 217, when Brian goes to tell Justin about his new partnership.

Disclaimers: I don't own Cowlip or the boys. I am not the Easter Bunny - but I am to my kids.

Author's Note: For the purpose of this story - Justin never went on the trip to Vermont since Mikey was a good friend to BOTH Brian and Justin and convinced Justin to stay and wait for Brian.

Author's Note #2: You can pronounce Cthulhu ka-too-la.

Chapter 1 Brian comes home from Chicago
Chapter 2 Brian tries to get some answers
Chapter 3 Brian confronts the blond in his loft
Chapter 4 Brian runs into Kip
Chapter 5 Brian learns who Justin is
Chapter 6 Brian and Michael learn more
Chapter 7 Brian gets some answers from Justin
Chapter 8 Brian goes back to the loft
Chapter 9 Brian talks to Lindsay
Chapter 10 Brian goes to the diner
Chapter 11 Brian reflects on the situation with Ben
Chapter 12 Brian keeps looking for answers
Chapter 13 Brian learns some hard truths
Chapter 14 Brian remembers something

Chapter 15 - Brian fucks upCollapse )
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Ny: aww...sad Justinnot_yet_defined on April 8th, 2007 02:37 am (UTC)
i think im too sad for Justin to comment. :( and our!brian is breaking my heart too, although, not as much as justin is.

oh and omgican'tbelievenotour!brianfuckedjustinrawwithoutevenasking!!!!!!!!

Maria: angst BJ Betrayedslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 02:56 am (UTC)

I'm sad for Justin right now too. :(

Thank you for the fb!

lady_erzulie on April 8th, 2007 02:50 am (UTC)
Damn, this is really getting fucked up. How can Justin believe that Other Brian doesn't love him, who he thinks is Our Brian, because they did it raw. I would think that it would show love and all that jazz. Ok, and other Brian is really ruining Our Brian's life now because he went in all raw. And Our Brian seems to be getting closer to Other Justin. I have to wonder though [and even though I won't get the answer], what will become of Our Brian and Our Justin's relationship at the end of this. Will it be stonger, or will it fall apart? Also what will happen to Other Brian and soon to be Other Justin? I love Micheal in this. He is not the Micheal that some writers have, he is actually a friend, and not a friend with unrequited . We really don't get to see "friend" Micheal on the show, and that's a sad thing.

Well, i've taken up tons of space, so next chapter please!!
Maria: angst BJ Betrayedslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:11 am (UTC)
No! You have NOT taken up tons of space! I love long fb! It shows me what you really think!

Yes, I felt Michael at the end of S2 was being what he was supposed to be - a good friend. I don't want to show unrequited love or anything like that here. Just him loving his best friend and wanting what is best for him - even if it's Justin and Justin - who he respects because of the fact that he's making his comic book dream come true and most importantly - has changed Brian for better (something Michael couldn't seem to do).

Justin? Maybe Justin during another season would see it as something good but late S2 wouldn't - remember, his confidence was very low there at that time.

Thank you for all this wonderful fb! More soon.
(no subject) - lady_erzulie on April 9th, 2007 03:22 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - slave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:29 am (UTC) (Expand)
svoigtsvoigt on April 8th, 2007 03:24 am (UTC)
Ok, I am a freak and held out as long as I could. So I made it to when you posted chapter 13, said "damn it all" and read it. And OMFG, why did I wait for so long.? This is one of the best, if not the best thing I have read in a while. There are so many parts of this that get the adrenaline pumping, and then your heart drops into your stomach. Like when my 13yr old niece got me to ride Superman at Six Flags over spring break. You don't like the feeling, but you can't wait to ride it again to achieve that very same feeling. Can't wait for the next part of the ride!!
Please tell me that both Brian's end up with both Justin's in the end. *rolls eyes at self, how pathetic am I?"**
Maria: Through a Mirrorslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:13 am (UTC)
Well, I'm very glad you decided to start reading it! :)

And I love the scary ride analogy. I know that's exactly how I feel when I read certain horror stories (or watch certain horror movies).

And as for the last part? About both Brian with their own Justins? You'll just have to wait and see...

Thank you!!!!
mdlawmdlaw on April 8th, 2007 03:47 am (UTC)
Maria: Through a Mirrorslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:17 am (UTC)
I know.

I'm such a shit...:P

Thanks for the fb (you know - the head popping off thing).
singlewoman: hands by silent_seassinglewoman on April 8th, 2007 04:04 am (UTC)
OMG! I am so glad that Justin stopped AU Brian, but now his heart is breaking 'cause he thinks Brian deosn't really care. And canon!Brian is doing his damnest to get back to Justin because HE realizes just how much Justin means to him.

You are killing me here. Can't way to know what Daphne will tell Brian. I don;t think it will be good.

Happy Easter to you as well.
Maria: angst BJ Betrayedslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:18 am (UTC)
Yeah, well more will be revealed in the next chapter.

And yes, Justin is not the type, no matter how low his confidence level, to have just let it happen (remember, this is the kid who even stoned, had fought off Sap).

Thanks for the fb! *smooches*
beth23beth23 on April 8th, 2007 04:04 am (UTC)
Bravo. Brilliant Justin mindset perfectly weaved between the two Brians. Stand and applauds. First Brian empathizing with the second Brian's need to find Justin. So many fragile pieces in this chess game you are writing. It is truly brilliant and original. Please update. Will bribe if necessary!!!
Maria: angst BJ Desperationslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:20 am (UTC)

A chess set.

A really big one.

And yes, I had to get into Justin's mind to think of how he would react and then I came up with this because that is what would happen and yes, Brian is a shit for doing Justin raw, but he is still like our Brian (only without a lot of life's little lessons learned via Justin) but he still has to wonder what's up with his counterpart.

Thank you for the wonderful fb! *hugs*
Skywalker's Dream: sketchskywalkersdream on April 8th, 2007 04:05 am (UTC)
ok so not exactly the college research paper I should be writing but well worth the distraction! Wow that was great. It puts my poor stories to shame. I knew Justin would know something was up...but I didnt think he would just think Brian didnt care. Grrrrr those boys...someone needs to knock some sense into them!

As for Daphne...I can just imagine what is going through her mind right now. If some hot guy came up and hugged me like that acting like I was the best thing simce sliced bread...I think that would really make my day. *Wink* Great gob once again..

PS My kitten Ike thinks so too... he must because he is laying on my arm while I am typing and wont get off!!! Not to mention he keeps trying to type.

Cant wait for more!
Maria: angst BJ Betrayedslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:40 am (UTC)
Yeah - Justin's confidence is so so so low right now.

And Daphne? No matter what Brian looked like, I wouldn't mind the hug - it probably WOULD make my whole day!!!!

Typing cats? I used to have a cat named Max who thought he was human and wanted to go in the toilet. LOL!

Thanks for the great fb!!!
anna_katarina: gate of lapland with moonanna_katarina on April 8th, 2007 04:33 am (UTC)
Oh PLEASE let not-our-Justin be alive so not-our-Brian can get to know HIM better. Ughhh Poor our-Justin, he is going to go insane without his-Brian, just like our-Brian is going crazy without his-Justin. This story is eating me alive and I'm loving it!
Thanks for writing.
Maria: BJ cuddleslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:41 am (UTC)
Now - I think the only way our Brian will he happy is with our Justin. They're just not that interchangeable. :)

Eating you alive, huh?

Funny - this isn't my cannibal crack!fic...*scratches head*

And thanks for reading and commenting.

I love it!!!
dh_lovedh_love on April 8th, 2007 04:38 am (UTC)

omg omg omg

ugh fucking not our Brian. guhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

please please please make it end well!! with brians back in order and justin knowing brian really loves him and not leaving him for Ethan or any of that actual season 2 BS that went on...PLEASE.

i'll give you anything.
i make a killer apple pie...
Maria: angst BJ Betrayedslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:42 am (UTC)
Yummmmm...I love apply pie, with ice cream. Yummmmm....

Chpater 16 is coming soon - never fear!

And don't worry about the whole Ethan thing - THAT I can tell you! :)
Alexander: FunSizedashmedai on April 8th, 2007 06:16 am (UTC)
This fic is amazing!! Thanks for posting each chapter so quickly too. Have a great Easter! :))
Maria: Through a Mirrorslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 03:45 am (UTC)
I hope you had a great Easter too Alex!

And THANK YOU for always taking the time to comment. *smooches*
critic75critic75 on April 8th, 2007 07:17 am (UTC)
*salaams, genuflects, touches head to the floor*
Greetings, Oh Great One, Master of the Cliffhanger, you have outdone yourself. . .Again ! ! !

*runs off to read gay porn*
Maria: angst BJ Stormfrontslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 02:17 pm (UTC)
I am evil - I know.

I hope the porn helped.

:) Thanks!!!!
LadyoftheLight: Qaf - 112 Ice cream kiss - Forevermarilla_pm67 on April 8th, 2007 08:59 am (UTC)
OMG, OMG , .........
Dead ...
Maria: Angst BJ Missing Youslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 02:17 pm (UTC)
*revives you*

How else can you finish the story?

:) Thank you.

*points at icon*
erdmut on April 8th, 2007 10:38 am (UTC)
its just all so good! thanks for writing!!!
Maria: Through a Mirror Darklyslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 02:18 pm (UTC)
And Thank You for reading and commenting.

Makes me very happy!
Bluemchenkaffee: bribluemchenkaffee on April 8th, 2007 01:25 pm (UTC)
OMG you did it again - this evil cliffhanger-thing ;)

It made me sad to see what kind of conclusions Justin draws. Poor Justin!

Can't wait to read what Daphne has to tell. I hope she can help Brian.

I don't know how you'll fix this mess our poor boys are in but I trust you that in the end everything will be fine at least for our!Brian and our!Justin.
So please, please update soon, I'm so addicted. :)

BTW as for my vacation I posted something on my LJ in case you're interested.

Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 02:20 pm (UTC)
Late S2 Justin is just so lost so this is the only way I could see him concluding what this meant.

Things will be fixed - that I can tell you - but you'll just have to wait and see....

Thanks for the fb!
qafmaniac: I will not cryqafmaniac on April 8th, 2007 02:11 pm (UTC)
He tried to put himself in that position and realized one thing. One very big thing.
He probably wasn't coping very well.

So yes, in all likelihood, the other Brian must be going out of his head right about now.

Yes,AU Brian,you've got that perfectly right!!And therefore....take your hands off.This Justin doesn't belongs to you!!If and when they will doing it raw is their decision...without you in the picture!

But really, why couldn't he? They were both negative.

WHAT??Are you kidding me??Negative or not,this is not your Justin.He belongs to our Brian!!!Aaaaand he loves OurBrian,not you!

Without the condom.

Without the latex there to impede him,

NOOOOOOOOOOO!How could you do this to Justin????????You betrayed his trust!And now Justin is hurting.He was unsure of himself since the bashing,he was insecure about Brian and their relationship and he sensed Brian's insecurities....and now you've edited this to the whole mess!
And than you've said you're sorry!!!OMFG!!!

Brian was letting him know, in his own way, he just didn't care anymore. This is what he meant to the man. He was pushing Justin off a cliff so he didn't have to say it directly. He would never put them both in danger like that if it wasn't so. Justin was good for fucking. That was it. And even that wasn't enough for Brian anymore apparently.

NO!JUSTIN!BRIAN LOVES YOU,REALLY LOVES YOU!!!Not this Brian!Your/OurBrian loves you!And he will tell you when he's comming back.Just wait for him.I know that you don't know it,(because you can't read the fic...hehehe) but that man,who is currently laying beside you,is AUBrian.He is a fake!Wait for the real THING,please!Don't come to any conclusions right now...

the sound of his own heart, slowly breaking in two.

Yeah...and mine just broke too.But I swear YourBrian will make it whole again.You just have to wait!
(And if that didn't happened in the end you can always sue Spike because she is writing this whole disaster..hehehehe!)

And in that moment, Brian forgot everything he knew. He forgot what he was going to say. He forgot everything that had happened to him. He forgot all the front doors with something nasty or unknown behind them.

Everything, because it was Daphne.

God...Brian,that must have been a relieve for you,I mean to forget all about this shit for just a few seconds.....

Brian stepped back and looked at what was no doubt and nobody could argue it with him, the most beautiful girl in the world, while trying to speak without his voice cracking.

"Oh God, Daphne, you don't know how good it is to see you," he said and smiled.

And with that, Brian hugged the girl to him once more, feeling for the first time in his life what the tears of relief felt like on his cheeks.

OMG,Brian!You are really loosing it now,right?The most beautiful girl in the world and you are glad to see her????I can understand you desperate thoughts and your weired feelings right now,but come on,focus,Brian,focus!You have to get back to your Justin in time or you will lose him!See,there is this other Brian and he just broke Justin's heart 'cause he tried to fuck him raw and then Justin.....

WHAT?Did I just talked to them?
See,this is what you're doing to me!!Writing fic and letting me go insane!! :D
So,go on with it and write the next chapter 'cause my insane me wants more....

Oh...and Happy Easter to you and your family too.


Maria: angst BJ Betrayedslave_o_spike on April 9th, 2007 02:23 pm (UTC)
Have I mentioned before how much I LOVE your fb?

I do. I love the fact that you're talking to the guys and telling them to hold on cuz they'll be together soon enough and that you're shaking your fist at their Brian.

This is so great!

More soon, don't worry!

Thank you!!!! *kisses madly*