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14 April 2007 @ 04:29 pm
QaF Fic "Through a Mirror, Darkly" Chapter 18  
Hello everyone.

First off, I will get back to the rest of the feedback from the last chapter. Sorry about that - but my What If challenge fic is posted so that's a done and the kids are feeling better.

Also, if you're into dark humor and old 60's and 70's movies (and Quentin Tarantino), go see Grindhouse.

That's all I have to say about that.

I should devote a whole post to it because...damn!

So, here you go, next chapter.

Love you all!!!

Spoiler Warning for this fic - Enter at your own riskCollapse )

Title: Through a Mirror Darkly
Chapter: 18
Pairing: Brian/Justin - duh!
Genre: Angst/Horror
Warnings: Character Death but not what you think.
Summary: Takes a strange turn at the end of Episode 217, when Brian goes to tell Justin about his new partnership.

Disclaimers: I don't own Cowlip or the boys.

Author's Note: For the purpose of this story - Justin never went on the trip to Vermont since Mikey was a good friend to BOTH Brian and Justin and convinced Justin to stay and wait for Brian.

Author's Note #2: You can pronounce Cthulhu ka-too-la.

Chapter 1 Brian comes home from Chicago
Chapter 2 Brian tries to get some answers
Chapter 3 Brian confronts the blond in his loft
Chapter 4 Brian runs into Kip
Chapter 5 Brian learns who Justin is
Chapter 6 Brian and Michael learn more
Chapter 7 Brian gets some answers from Justin
Chapter 8 Brian goes back to the loft
Chapter 9 Brian talks to Lindsay
Chapter 10 Brian goes to the diner
Chapter 11 Brian reflects on the situation with Ben
Chapter 12 Brian keeps looking for answers
Chapter 13 Brian learns some hard truths
Chapter 14 Brian remembers something
Chapter 15 Brian fucks up
Chapter 16 Brian talks to Daphne
Chapter 17 Brian finds out about Justin

Chapter 18 - Brian gets helpCollapse )
Current Mood: draineddrained
LadyoftheLight: Qaf - BJ couplemarilla_pm67 on April 15th, 2007 08:31 am (UTC)
Like always ... just great .
Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:41 am (UTC)
Hee! Thanks Sam!

Chapter 19 is up!
bjgirlghbjgirlgh on April 15th, 2007 09:26 am (UTC)
ur killing me plz what will brian do?there is nithing for him to continue his living ofcourse its my idea plz tell me that justin will do sth he is very emotion less
Maria: angst BJ Aloneslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:41 am (UTC)
Justin is starting to suspect something and Brian? Well, the next chapter will show that things will start rolling forward for him.

And hey! Chapter 19 is up, NOW!!!!

Thanks! :)
adelais_liliadelais_lili on April 15th, 2007 11:48 am (UTC)
Sweety, you have to bring our Brian home as soon as possible before he completely looses his mind. And me too in that matter.
I'm sad for our Brian cause he can't bring himself in dreaming about Justin. And all he can think about is his own personal hell what living without Justin is. I'm sad for Justin cause he senses something different in Brian and thinks it's because Brian don't care about him anymore. And I'm sad for your AU Brian cause he knows now what it is to have Justin in his life. And when he gets back to where he belongs I just don't know what he's going to do.
I can't wait to see how you're going to fix the things. Hugs.
Maria: angst BJ Stormfrontslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:39 am (UTC)
Our Brian is getting closer. I just needed him to come to terms with 'things.'

Justin is definitely getting skittish around other Brian, but well, you'll see.

Chapter 19 is up! Thanks for the great fb as always!

*hugs you back*
My Flame Burns Bright: BJ - Reunionsuch_a_steph on April 15th, 2007 12:37 pm (UTC)
I love the way you are tying in Justin's disconnection with Brian as it was in late season two. I kind of like your version better than canon ;)

Last chapter I wasn't so worried about "other" Brian not going back.... you have me worried again! The despair of both Justin & the real Brian is heartbreaking, I'm looking forward to seeing how you bring them back together.
Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:34 am (UTC)
Well, I hope I was trying to be as close to canon as possible - but yeah, I wanted to do it like Justin in late S2 would have done it. What his thoughts were.

They are getting closer to getting back together. Don't despair!

Chapter 19 is up! And thank you. *kisses*
(no subject) - such_a_steph on April 17th, 2007 03:46 am (UTC) (Expand)
Bluemchenkaffee: jus 205bluemchenkaffee on April 15th, 2007 12:45 pm (UTC)
You're killing me!!! I don't know if I should beg for a fast ending where everything is fixed or if I want you to write this story endlessly.
I'm so sad for both Brians and Justins. I think the other Brian will suffer a lot when he's back in his own world without Justin and our!Brian suffers now.
Justin senses that something is wrong, at least his body does and the other!Justin is dead! Can you fix that??

Can't wait for more!

Maria: angst BJ Stormfrontslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:33 am (UTC)
I know - when I like a story, I want it to end so everyone's happy but then I don't want it to end, cuz then it'll be over. LOL!

Justin is feeling not quite right right now. Well, you'll see. Chapter 19 is up RIGHT NOW!!!!

Thank you. :)
Doriantdorian on April 15th, 2007 01:26 pm (UTC)
Wonderful interaction between Brian and Father Tom.Of all the minor characters that were in the show this one was really intriguing i think.And here, there is sort of an answer to this complex character.He has an honesty about who he is and what he does that he is stricking.So,he makes a great match in this confrontation/shake up scene with Brian.
And the visual with both Brian and Justin in paralel worlds not able to find some peace in their sleep, wonderful.Aida
Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:26 am (UTC)
As I was saying before - I thought Cowlip did such a disservice to the Father Tom character. Priests are inherently tragic characters. I wanted to flesh him out more.

And he's very honest about who he is. He knows at any moment he could be caught, but he's willing to go with whatever they're willing to do to him.

Yes, they're both not feeling very happy right now.

Oh and chapter 19 is up! Yay! Thank you. *smooches*
lexa4227lexa4227 on April 15th, 2007 03:45 pm (UTC)
Great chapter. I really hope Brian and Justin reunited soon. Looking forward for more.
Maria: angst BJ Stormfrontslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:23 am (UTC)
Yes - soon...soon.

Thank you.

And chapter 19 is up. Things are looking up for Brian (our-Brian!)
dh_lovedh_love on April 15th, 2007 04:28 pm (UTC)
whyyyyyyy do you insist on making me cry?!

sooo sad. you're breaking my heart with brian!

if this doesn't turn out to be a happy ending (whenever the ending may be)...well, i don't know exactly what I'll do, but it'll be bad.

i promise.
Maria: angst BJ Aloneslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:22 am (UTC)
LOL! Don't worry. I won't let anyone down. I haven't yet!

Actually, chapter 19 is up and things for our Brian are looking up.

Go read. And for Godsake! Don't panic!!!

singlewoman: hands by silent_seassinglewoman on April 15th, 2007 06:10 pm (UTC)
Wow, talk about angst! I hope Brian finds his way home soon because even the thought of arson is so against his nature. Trashing his desk, well the Other's desk, IS his style.

Justin somehow knows that Brian is not his Brian. Justin has never been uncomfortable around Brian; angry, unsure, even nervous, but never uncomfortable.

I liked Fr. Tom in htis, I hope he was able to give Brian a little solace, even if Brian doesn't realize it yet.

Bring our boys together soon!!
Maria: angst BJ Desperationslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:20 am (UTC)
Yeah - he knew that arson wouldn't be such a hot idea - even in his grief, he was still thinking about the safety of others.

Yeah - Justin is starting to suspect something.

And Father Tom? I just love priests. They're such inherently tragic figures so I had to include him - I think I made him a little more 3-D than Cowlip did. And I wanted to give his love for men a voice.

And...da da da...chapter 19 is up! Thanks! :)
Rory Harold: Get Your Gunforeverfolked on April 15th, 2007 07:24 pm (UTC)
One step closer to salvation..
I hope you are super proud of this fic. Your writing, as I've said before is impeccable! Every line is just so spot on that my heart just beats rapidly through the whole fic. I found myself crying again, wanting to warm Justin and dreading, yet glad too, that he's begining to really KNOW it's not our Brian with him. I so don't cry at fics, but here you go. I'm a mess. I don't want this fic to end... but I want Brian and Justin's suffering too, and I really am interested to find out what you are going to do about the other Justin and Brian. More soon pretty please! -Rory Harold
Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:18 am (UTC)
Re: One step closer to salvation..
Actually, I am rather proud of the fic. I really didn't think it would get this much notice because of the subject matter but I can say, I'm very pleased by how it's turning out! :)

I know - I've read fics where I don't want them to end, but I do because then everything will be alright again. Ya know?

I was going to say chapter 19 is posted but I see from my mail which just dinged that you saw it! I shall go see how you liked!

Thank you.
ranksyranksy on April 15th, 2007 09:01 pm (UTC)
Actually, the next chapter is when everything really starts rolling to the conclusion.

*sighs with relief* I'm loving this story, but I'm starting to feel like our Brian might loose it permanently if things don't start coming together soon! Can't wait to read more!
Maria: angst BJ Stormfrontslave_o_spike on April 17th, 2007 03:15 am (UTC)
Yes - he would but well, you'll see since I just posted chapter 19!

Thank you.
Ladaladooshka on April 15th, 2007 11:36 pm (UTC)
When a couple chapters ago I found out that other Justin in other Universe was killed I was devastated! I really hoped that our Brian would meet other Justin and somehow would help other Brian lives his life the right way upon their exchange back between places. It's hard for our Brian to be there when Justin is no more, but may be that place can really show him that he needs to express his feelings to Justin ones and for all! But when he returns! I wish it would happen sooner than later!) Hopefully our Justin here will not do anything stupid such as leaving Brian!!

Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 16th, 2007 06:03 pm (UTC)
Yes! That's it! Brian Kinney doesn't get things unless you whack him upside the head with them (bats to the hed, bombs at Babylon) - he needs to see life without Justin to get off his ass.

I felt so bad for S2 Justin - it was just heartbreaking to watch. This is my way of fixing them before the whole Ethan thing.

Thank you! Glad you're loving so much!
illyryaillyrya on April 16th, 2007 12:39 am (UTC)
Usually I don't read this type of fic, but I must say yours is so good that you got me addicted to it.
Maria: Through a Mirror Darklyslave_o_spike on April 16th, 2007 04:52 pm (UTC)
Re: Wow!
Why thank you!

Glad you're enjoying so much! More soon.
Han-chan, the cutest Ham on earthhangebokhan on April 16th, 2007 01:36 am (UTC)
Here is one boo-boo I saw. I mean, there were the normal I-need-to-please-MS-word grammatical boo-boos too, but this was one I thought you might want pointed out ^^

need to stay. I can(')t leave him alone,

Lufing it as always,

Maria: Through a Mirror Darklyslave_o_spike on April 16th, 2007 04:49 pm (UTC)
*smooches* I will go fix now...

BTW, I-need-to-please-MS-word grammatical boo-boos too? What's that? (I know - I'm proving yet again my lack of computer-speak).

And thank you. Glad you're loving it! :)
(no subject) - hangebokhan on April 16th, 2007 05:56 pm (UTC) (Expand)
qafmaniac: Brian 308 Hurtqafmaniac on April 16th, 2007 06:40 pm (UTC)
Because this was his hell.

Yes.....and mine too!

And Brian had to admit, he liked him.

Or more.

Yeah...you're falling for him,right??But as I said earlier,he is not your Justin.He belongs to our Brian!

Justin looked up at Brian warily. "And you Brian? Do you?"

Ohhhh....maybe you're going to be a little suspicious?????

Justin lay facing the other way, Brian's arms trapping him against the chest behind him, and try as he might, he just couldn't get warm enough.

That's because your body is trying to tell you that this Brian is not your Brian!

Loved this chapter....although you broke my heart..again! :(
So....fix it!! ;)
Maybe with a little spark of hope in the next chapter? :)


Maria: Angst BJ Fighting for usslave_o_spike on April 19th, 2007 03:33 am (UTC)
I'm sorry I missed this! I pride myself in getting to everyone's fb!

Anywho, well, you already know what happens in next chapter but yes, you tell him Tita!

He's not your Justin, he's our Brian's Justin!

*shakes fist with you*

*smooches you madly*

I love you dearly. Thank you.